A Tree Falls

A tree falls…
Does it make a sound?
Or do all of its leaves…
Just disappear on the ground?
And when it falls,
Because fall it will…
Then why wasn’t the tree…
Standing still?
Was it because…
It felt weak?
Or maybe because…
It wasn’t unique?
Or could it be that
Poison just seeped?
And nobody heard
This lonely tree weep?
Since it’s lonely,
There is no one around…
Silently it will fall,
On to the ground
Leaving no mark and no stains…
No one to visit its rotting remains…
But little flowers grow…
Where it once fell
To remind you of all the
Secrets it can’t tell
It fell cuz people weren’t true…
But in the end… Just know
It forgives you.

Faceless Man

A faceless man, on a darkened horse
Chants my name, with whispered force.
Throws pebbles at my window and looks up to see
An innocent face look down on thee
I climb down the stairs and open the door
Tip toe over the creeks on the floor
A sudden voice says “don’t you go!”
The voice in my head I rejected so
A mystery man, with a covering cape
Hides his face but reveals his shape
A beautiful body and haunting voice
Commands me to follow, I have no choice!
He gallops slowly on his steed
I walk to him barefoot and follow his lead
My bright garden falls under his shade
As he sings lullabies of a planned fair trade
Entices my body as I finally give in
To a faceless man I have yet seen grin
And then after he climbs on his horse
Laughs and speaks with no remorse
His beautiful voice all sick and deranged
And all of the sudden I feel estranged
I walk up to him slowly, pull of his hood
If I can change time, trust me I would
A startle falls upon my face
I feel such shame and such disgrace
I fall to the floor and to my surprise
I made love… to a devil in disguise.

In The End

And In the end I walk away,
With shame and nothing else to say
A lonely bird in a misty sky,
Broken wings that attempt to fly
Over a sea of thunderous clouds,
Masking scars in layered shrouds
Engulfing waves of lies and pain,
Salt upon a bleeding vein
Vultures that skulk and wait,
For me to meet my dying fate
As lighting strikes from above,
I give up my immortal love-
Fall through the sky and hit the ground,
My nonexistence makes no sound
A broken body turns to see,
A ray of light preach to me
And in the dirt think and lay,
That one day I will be okay.

Memories.

I don't know what is going on with me lately. It's like I'm having withdrawal from you. I load myself with a ton of work during the day, it helps me get through it, but the more I suppress my the thoughts the more they haunt me when I lay down in bed. I haven't really been talking to anyone. I've just isolated myself from all the bullshit and fake things around me. uh omg, its like I cant even complete a thought without wanting to hug you. I miss the way you would make me feel. Loved. Even when we would fight, and I was so mad at you, you would walk up to me from behind and hug me, or make me some tea or write me a cute "I'm sorry, its my fault" poem, even though sometimes it was my fault. Most of all I miss you as my friend. I feel as if i'm losing all my friends, some of them were never really my friends to begin with. But i'm left alone now. I feel ok most of the day. I don't want to let anyone in. Maybe it is my fault I'm like this. I don't know why I threw our relationship away. Especially if we were so happy. But this world we lived in when we were together was not this world. We created one. One where it was just us. With no problems. And when we would find time to sneak around to see each other, we would lock ourselves in a room and lay in bed staring into each others eyes, till one of us fell asleep. But I was starting to confuse that world we made for this one. I live in this world, My body binds and chains me to this world. Yet my, soul would float around in the other world. I found myself hiding from hurt in your arms. Its where I wanted to spend my life. I found myself thinking of crazy things, like leaving school and running away...to just be with you. And when I was with you it was worth it, but when I thought of all the pain you caused me and all the pain I know you will cause me, I bailed. I got scared. Like you got scared. Only I didn't run to your friend, I ran from you. And I keep running from you. Yet, you somehow ended up in my bed late at night. All I kept thinking about was taking it to the next step, but I quickly realized i was not ready for such a thing. But I enjoyed the night the way it turned out. Peaceful. And I felt safer then ever. Now I protect myself and I'm fine with that. And I have no where to hide and I'm fine with that. And I have no one that can hold me and I'm fine with that. I just don't know why I dream of you kiss. The way you would run your hands from my waist all the way to my neck, where your fingers would work their way through my hair and then onto my face. I'm over you, but these memories will never fade away... why wont they fade away?

Lost

Not myself anymore
Lost in an ocean of despair
If only I had you
And your kiss that would
drift me ashore

My Wish

I want to have a nice home-cooked dinner with somebody who cares for me. We can look into each others eyes and have deep conversations about anything. Anything at all.

Heaven

I dream of your kiss, the kisses that would leave my body laying still... motionless. I would feel my soul elevating to a state of higher being, floating into a place I call heaven.