I wrote this when I was 15

Dont worry my friend
Your time will come, Not end
For, I know you witnessed heartbreak
And I know how hard it is to see
That things will happoen in their time, Things will
Just be
Smile, Dont frown
Laugh, Dont Cry
I know that your problems will drain away,
They will pass you by
Forget the things you think aboutr, Or just set
Things aside
I feel like you are on a coaster being taken on
A ride
Dont hurt yourself, Think a bit
Stop
Dont worry, My friend
For your time will come, Not end
All the problems that you have will just dismend

Marlon Brando

Ok, so those who know me, know I have this weird thing, I think its hot watching sexy guys shave their faces. Lol, and this is the sexiest mannnn everr..to bad he's dead now. RIP Marlon Brando.



This man is the most gorgeous person that could have ever lived. Talented and Beautiful inside out. In this movie he plays his antithesis

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBJ_u2ExjmY&feature=related

He is just so beautiful!

Will I ever stop?

So I happen to miss you like crazy. Will I ever stop loving you?
Every time I sign on to write something, nothing comes out.

Holidays

HOLY FUCKING SHIT
I would sure want him to climb through my chimney ;) (pun intended ROFL)
This is sure a long way away from my first image of Santa! Since I don't celebrate Christmas because I'm Jewish, I would love for the Jewish Hannukah Harry to look like this =]





But its ok, we get to keep Adam Levine =]

All of this for a step further into life.

You have lost all that belonged to you,
So here, come take what I have.
You are the not worth a gram of dirt,
So here, take the gold I am made of.
You don’t have a place on this planet,
So here, take my place in this world.
You have poor judgment in your 40 years,
So here, take my 19 year old judgment.
All of this for a step further into life.
You don’t have any manners left,
So here, take my etiquette.
You don’t understand life,
So here, go and ruin the lives around you.
You don’t have any friends,
So here, take mine for yourself.
All of this for a step further into life.
You have lost your humanness,
So here, let yourself revolve around me.
You can’t blame yourself for your own mistakes,
So here, I shall take all the blame for you.
All of this for a step further into life.
You think you are in control,
But no, I will take control.
All of this for a step further into life.
You think you are ahead,
But no, you just took 5 steps back.
All of this for a step further into life.
You have lost your meaning,
But no, you blindly gave it to me.
So here, I took it. From you.
Just like you thought I would.
All of this for a step further into life.
You think I have lost this war,
But no, you surrendered.
I have won, and you are nothing.
All of this for a step further into life.
So cry, bitch cry. Cry your defeated cry.
As I write music to your tears.
11-22-2010

Alone

Lately everything I have been doing, is being done alone. I really am alone. I really wish I could go see the Phantom of the Opera on Broadway. They finally came to perform again in New York, but I don't have an opportunity to go. I wish I could. If I get the chance, I'll probably end up going alone...

It's been a while. 2:04AM 8/18/10

Looks like i'm the only person writing on my blog now. It seems as if nobody reads these things anymore. I guess one main reason I write on this thing is because I need to find away to relieve my stress. I need to find a place to write things down. When I can't find a way to write things down in my journal, I come here.

Lots of things have happened since I wrote here. He's gone now. He left somewhere for a while, I can't wait for him to come back, but maybe one day the wait will be over. Way before he actually comes back. I mean I kinda miss him. Ok, I really miss him, but maybe things will be different. I just don't want him to come back into my life when I have finally moved on. That hasn't happened completely yet, but one day soon it might.

Most of all, I miss his voice. I still sometimes talk to him on the phone, but its not enough. It's like some big tease, I hear him, but he is so far away. I miss the way he would hug me. I would yell the shit out of him, telling him I don't want him to touch me, I don't want him to hug me, when in reality, that's all I was waiting for. I miss the way we would talk about everything. I love talking to him. I miss the way he would look at me. I miss the way he would kiss me. OH MY GOD. I miss the way he would kiss me. It's like this thirst I cannot quench. This insatiable feeling. Whenever he would hold me and kiss me, we would be lying next to one another so close, but I still didn't have enough of him.

I can never get enough of him. And I guess in the long run, that can one day be a good thing.